Ansy, that sounds exactly like what happened to my mum. About 5 years ago she was late, so she did a test and it came out positive. She went to the doc, and they thought she was having a ectopic pregnancy. But then, like you, they couldn't find the embryo the next time she went in. They didn't know what was going on because her tests were all coming out positive. I would have to ask her what its called that happened to her, but basically she was having a type of false pregnancy. Like, there was the egg and everything but I don't think it was fertilized. It was an empty one. But her body thought she was pregnant. Maybe that's what is happening with you? I would have to ask my mum what it's called, but it was really weird.

I hope you're able to figure everything out and that everything works out for the best for you! Were you guys planning on having more kids? My husband and I bat it around sometimes, but we're just so confused that it's probably not a good idea until we knew for sure, lol. Babies are so much fun though :)

Hunter, no we had not planned on any more kids...lol.  My 2 are PLENTY...lol

Lovin.....don't beat yourself up.  Things happen for a reason.  If it makes you feel any better I will stand up and say that yes...I have had an abortion before.  I realize that will probably change some views towards me but I'm not going to lie about it.  I did it for health reasons.  The doctors told me they believed they could get me to term, but I just could not risk it.  My 2 pregnancies with my boys were VERY hard.  I went totally blind with my first one (for 3 days).  I was scared to death.  With my 2nd, I was put on bed rest at 4 months along.  I had several health problems while carrying my boys and literally felt like death.

I truly did not feel my body could handle another pregnancy and I simply could not leave my 2 young sons behind.  In all honesty, I had not (and could not) "bond" with an embryo, but my children whom I have seen, loved, bonded with for years.....that makes a huge difference.

I made the decision based on my health and wanting to be here for them.  Yes, it was very stressful and mentally took its toll on me for a little bit, but I got through it and all is fine now.

It is my belief that if the fetus cannot live outside the womb, even with the assistance of life support, that it is not a baby.  This made my decision easier.  I am very aware of how a fetus looks at 6 to 8 weeks (the normal timeframe for an abortion) and I am aware that is has a somewhat shape of a human, but I am also aware of what it is not....it is not an organism which can live outside the womb.

I do believe in a woman's right to choose, however, I am totally against late term abortions.  I also respect the views of those who are totally against abortion.  They have a right to believe that way.

I am not suggesting that you had that procedure, but wanted you to know that I have "been there, done that".  More than likely, whats making you feel like a murderer is the comments you hear from those who are against it, and not the actual act that happened.

It takes someone with a very strong mind to be able to do that.  If you have any doubts...DO NOT do it (if anyone should ever be considering it).  I realize this could turn to a heated debate here as people view this strongly.....but if any of you ever wondered what it is like.....or had any questions......please feel free to ask.  I will not hesitate to answer you.  I will say that "physically" it was the most painful experience of my life.......worse than 2 C-Sections deliveries with my boys.  I thought I would die from the pain that day.

I do believe that having that abortion is what is causing me problems now.  They can increase the chances of not being able to concieve or carry a child in the future.  As soon as we get this taken care of, I will have a Tubal Ligation so that there is no chance of a pregnancy.....false or not....happening in the future.

I can see the thoughts now "Oh my....a Child Psychologist who had an abortion....it doesn't make sense".  Well, its the truth.  I am not ashamed of it, nor will I lie about it.  Whenever I feel the least bit of guilt, I just look at my 2 boys now.....and realize that I very well might not have been here to watch them grow up had I have decided otherwise.

This is the first time I have ever went "public" with this.  Only JT and I knew.  I know it probably has upset some of you, but it sure is nice to be able to finally talk about it.

Well Ansy, you don't have to worry about me because I won't/don't judge you for your decision. I never judge anyone for anything like that. It's weird, because I personally would never have an abortion (unless it was determined that the child wouldn't survive when they were born because of severe defects) but I never judge others for doing it. If that makes sense at all.  Since I don't know what that person was going through, I don't feel that I can judge them for what they decide or not decide to do in that situation. If you know that you made the right decision, that's all that should matter, and all that matters to me. I think the only time it really gets to me is when it's used as birth control. To me, there is no reason for numerous abortions.

This subject was brought up a little while ago when you were gone and I thought everyone was pretty mature about the whole thing. It is a hard subject to talk about though...

Ok, i must be the dumbest person ( i am a blond after all....hehe) but.........what is a Ectopic Pregnancy?  

I am not a person who judges either.  I have friends that have had abortions and that was their choice.  I cannot say much for myself as i am very lucky to have the one child i have and by a nasty twist of fate, lost the chance at any more but i would have to agree that if it were a choice i would have had to make for health reasons, i would have.  When i got pregnant with my son, i had to do the usual HIV test and my husband and i agreed that if i came back HIV pos. (of which he surely would have been too) that we'd abort because we didn't want our son growing up parentless.  Maybe that was a bad way to think but we never know what life will dish out and all we can do is take it as it comes.  I truely hope you get better soon because being sick sucks......i know that much too well.